How does she?
She doesn’t. Or at least I don’t.
I haven’t cooked dinner since I made pasta cobb salad on Sunday night, and that is so easy to make it hardly counts as cooking.
But instead of beating myself up about what I’m not getting done, like I typically would, I’m feeling grateful, happy even.
Now that I have recovered from having my gallbladder removed, I feel better than I have in a long, long time.
I’ve also adjusted my thyroid medication, so between that and our new mattress, I am getting much better rest at night.
So, I’m grateful. Grateful that I no longer wake up in pain. Grateful that I have energy. Grateful for rest.
Grateful that when I don’t finish my to-do list, I at least started it.
At the end of the day I’m okay with the fact that I can’t do it all, and it feels good.
It’s been two weeks since I wrote those words. Since then I have cooked a few more meals, finished a painting project for my first client, gone to work, run errands…
A week ago, I went to my grandmother’s house to help my parents go through Nonna’s things. It was five o’clock. Mom and I had come to a natural stopping point in packing. Dad was tired, drenched in sweat, and struggling with the choice to keep going or call it a day.
Mow Nonna’s yard.
Then, finish mowing my yard.
Those were the unfinished things on his to-do list that were vying for his time and attention. But between Mom telling my Dad she didn’t want him to pass out and me asking if I could cook him dinner, his decision was made.
I could relate, having had that very same struggle, a battle in my mind between finishing my to-do list and knowing when to stop.
Enjoy summer with my daughter.
These are the things on my to-do list, vying for my time and attention. But between watching “our shows” together with my daughter and that inner voice telling me to take a break, my decision is made.
School’s out for Summer at Sharon E. Hines.
That may be over stating it. I have projects in progress and more in line. So, I will likely pop in from to time to time to show you those.
But, I’m definitely slowing down the pace for summer, because I can’t do it all.
See you in class,